Change

In the past two weeks there have been changes in the life of Cactus. I am free from glasses (conquered my fear of the surgery more importantly), cut and colored my hair and decided to pursue a Master's degree.

Here I sit, nearly 3 A.M. and I can't sleep. Why? I heard a song on the radio on the way home from Happy Hour tonight. I mean seriously, its a country song by Rascal Flatts. I hate country. But there's something about the lyrics that gets my mind all stirring. I've listened to it over ten times. If you know me well, you know why.

Title: I'm Movin' On

Artist: Rascal Flatts

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I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons

Finally content with a past I regret

I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness

For once I'm at peace with myself

I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long

I'm movin' on

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I've lived in this place and I know all the faces

Each one is different but they're always the same

They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it

They'll never allow me to change

But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong

I'm movin' on

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I'm movin' on

At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me

And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone

There comes a time in everyone's life

When all you can see are the years passing by

And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

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I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't

Stopped to fill up on my way out of town

I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't

I had to lose everything to find out

Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road

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I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on